Lesley - Dave/Ruelle.mp3

[00:08.91]Look
[00:10.95]They say the universe, it works in a strange way
[00:14.22]And it must be true because,
[00:16.19]We ain't from the same background or same place
[00:19.29]But me and Lesley ended up on that same train
[00:21.84]I'm talking everyday, I used to wake up around seven or eight
[00:26.73]To catch the 9:06 from Norbury Station
[00:29.58]Two different worlds in the same location and-
[00:32.57]One day we ended up speaking
[00:34.88]And I would talk about college, she would talk about meetings
[00:38.41]And how she's planning on leaving
[00:40.37]How she hates what she does but she needs it
[00:43.02]I asked her what she was doing, it's the weekend
[00:45.73]And she said, she said
[00:48.63]I don't know myself
[00:51.10]I don't know myself no more
[00:54.54]She used to be the life of the party for true
[00:57.02]And now she going out hardly ever
[00:59.68]Her man got her in the yard forever
[01:01.55]And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her
[01:04.36]Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive
[01:07.14]And she can't even see it,
[01:09.99]But for them it's clear as day, she's in a situation
[01:12.99]Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative
[01:15.67]So, she could see it from a mile off
[01:18.22]Turtleneck jumpers, makeup around the eye spots
[01:20.88]All the signs were there
[01:22.45]But Lesley made it seem a light affair
[01:25.08]Said it wasn't right to share
[01:26.49]Her boyfriend, he was a mystery man
[01:28.52]I didn't know much about him, but he's been in the can
[01:31.20]Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasoning
[01:34.13]To be honest, I don't know what Les' sees in him
[01:37.08]'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart
[01:39.85]But they've both got demons and a deep past
[01:42.68]You know opposites attract, apparently
[01:45.22]I never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh
[01:48.63]He was all that she had
[01:50.00]Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back
[01:52.67]And I don't know if there was more to the story than that
[01:55.41]'Cause she plays things down but according to that
[01:58.13]He went missing one day in the morning he ran
[02:00.77]She's doing overtime, struggling affording the flat
[02:03.49]'Til she, lost her job it ****ed all of her plans
[02:06.17]Couldn't pay the rent, borrowing and calling for cash
[02:08.97]But Hannah she was there for her, cared for her
[02:12.63]When I saw Les' she told me
[02:14.86]I don't know myself
[02:17.21]I don't know myself no more
[02:20.74]Les' saying, "I got nothing to live for
[02:22.60]It's been raw, but David, I ain't never been this poor
[02:25.36]There's no income, my boyfriend left me
[02:28.17]So how the **** am I going to survive when this kid's born?
[02:30.80]I said, "It's a blessing as mad as it is
[02:33.37]And Les', I never even knew that you were having a kid"
[02:35.90]Bro, she's four months pregnant, young and neglected
[02:38.97]Single but I don't think she wants to accept it
[02:41.64]So she's still texting exes trying to get this
[02:44.33]Back on track but I don't think that she gets it
[02:46.94]It's emotional obsession, clinical depression
[02:52.47]Life is a lesson
[02:53.73]And you ain't got to sit and cry
[02:57.80]And Lesley, living in this gift called life
[03:00.52]There's no better gift than the gift of life
[03:02.98]So, can you handle it?
[03:08.59]I don't know myself
[03:11.11]I don't know myself no more
[03:14.55]But that changed her perspective
[03:16.88]Late in December, her baby's expected to drop
[03:20.01]She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped
[03:22.65]Only got to wait a few months
[03:24.61]Her and Hannah had lunch
[03:25.95]Told her she's pregnant
[03:27.51]And they're the closest of bredrins
[03:30.24]So she didn't stunt to tell her, I think that it's an error
[03:33.18]You ain't a mum for a day, you're a mum forever
[03:35.82]Whatever, and you and Jason break up whenever
[03:38.45]If I'm honest that's something you should have done together
[03:41.19]She doesn't know that her and Jason are going out again
[03:43.76]And Jason doesn't know that Lesley's carrying a child for them
[03:46.49]She had daydreams of settling down with Jason,
[03:49.25]Better 'cause now they're together it's wild
[03:51.60]Feeling like she needs to call her friends
[03:53.44]And tell 'em 'cause while she's letting him down
[03:55.31]But most of them are never around
[03:56.88]She calls Hannah the next day
[03:58.41]Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her
[04:03.22]That she's getting back together with an ex-flame
[04:05.52]So she left her a voicemail
[04:08.04]Like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back?
[04:10.84]I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that
[04:16.24]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
[04:18.97]I used to be so ****ing confident
[04:21.60]But these days, I swear that-"
[04:24.29]I don't know myself
[04:26.62]I don't know myself no more
[04:30.07]It's 3:30 Lesley was meant to get a scan
[04:32.80]But today I think she's going home early
[04:34.87]Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid
[04:37.37]Addressing any reservations
[04:38.85]Have that conversation
[04:40.20]Middle of the summer and it's raining
[04:42.27]Waiting at the train station
[04:44.22]Hella cancellations
[04:45.59]So she gets a taxi, sitting in a backseat
[04:48.30]Blue jean jacket and a maxi
[04:50.36]Actually, tired and her legs are aching
[04:52.72]Touched the destination
[04:54.03]Way faster than the cab driver's estimation
[04:56.77]She put the key in the door
[04:58.97]She, couldn't believe what she see on the floor
[05:01.42]Some size five trainers, raging
[05:04.09]Tears in her eyes, but it's cool
[05:06.07]'Cause they must be the neighbors
[05:07.39]And Jason's in the bedroom fully naked
[05:09.86]Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise
[05:13.23]And she can hear Jason's voice
[05:15.16]Saying "Hide in the closet"
[05:16.56]But he's made his choice
[05:17.88]So, she bursts in saying
[05:19.13]"What kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?"
[05:23.21]Jason, saying "What the ****,
[05:24.91]You're pregnant? What the ****?
[05:26.28]You weren't even gonna tell me, I mean what the ****?
[05:29.11]What do you want from us?
[05:30.33]Nah, you ain't in love, you just wanna love"
[05:34.39]Lesley telling Jason, "I don't wanna love
[05:37.14]I don't want a you and I, I don't want an us
[05:39.91]And also, I don't wanna talk loads
[05:42.48]One more line before I dash like Morse code"
[05:45.26]Open the wardrobe
[05:46.49]And Jason's on the edge
[05:50.33]"I just wanna see if she was prettier than me, slimmer than me
[05:53.72]Maybe your baby's similar to me
[05:55.36]Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me, fitter than me
[05:58.97]To satisfy you quicker than me
[06:00.72]I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me
[06:03.34]What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me?
[06:06.18]I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me
[06:08.80]And give it to me, the wardrobe, give me the key"
[06:11.57]I was pulling up the door but Jason's bigger than me
[06:14.37]Literally, I remember viscerally
[06:16.79]Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me
[06:19.55]White flashes, eye gashes, when he's hitting me, see
[06:22.34]I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me
[06:24.96]Physically I shut the ****ing doors quick as can be
[06:27.77]He's outside asking why I made him do what he did
[06:30.30]Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in
[06:32.97]I'm feeling afraid, barricaded, with a chair in the handle
[06:35.76]I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't
[06:38.51]Jason's gone by the time police are comin'
[06:40.98]They saw that ain't no one else in the house
[06:42.75]And feds are running through the door shouting
[06:44.30]"'We have reports of an argument with a woman'
[06:46.78]There's blood all over the floor
[06:47.99]And it's splattered onto the wall
[06:49.43]Les-ley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds
[06:52.14]She's deep in the stress and his meter's above her head
[06:54.82]If anything, she couldn't even say anything
[06:57.79]But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is
[07:00.65]So, they call an ambulance, Lesley didn't plan for this
[07:03.30]Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle
[07:06.27]Until they stumble on something that's kind of random
[07:08.38]It's a phone in the wardrobe
[07:11.53]They had five missed phone calls from Jason
[07:16.07]And also a couple other numbers
[07:17.98]So they thinking that it's no help
[07:19.47]Until they play the voicemail like
[07:22.40]"Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back?
[07:25.01]I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that
[07:30.62]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back
[07:33.17]I used to be so ****ing confident
[07:35.77]But these days, I swear that-"
[07:38.59]I don't know myself
[07:40.80]I don't know myself no more
[07:44.11]She felt sick to her stomach, she started panicking
[07:46.37]Mind rattling, tryna understand what Hannah did
[07:49.14]Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing
[07:51.74]She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison
[07:54.52]Meanwhile, she's on the bed tryna manage this
[07:57.33]Piercing pain in the stomach, she couldn't handle it
[07:59.86]Now she's waiting for an ambulance
[08:04.88]Look
[08:05.72]And I know she's strong, but when I heard about
[08:08.78]What happened I was over-shocked
[08:10.29]Her nose was gone, her jaw line shattered and rocked
[08:13.17]They said her baby was the reason she was holding on
[08:15.63]She dozing off, doctors getting no response
[08:18.44]Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong
[08:21.16]Picked her up, got her out the home
[08:23.25]And onto the stretcher for good measures but she fading out, oh
[08:27.03]She took damage to the brain
[08:28.61]And now she's in a coma as we speak
[08:30.57]But I ain't sure if she can make it out
[08:32.86]You see this time that I'm taking out
[08:34.38]To tell you the story is more than a song or track
[08:37.18]It's a message to a woman with a toxic man
[08:39.83]I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped
[08:42.49]I understand that I can never understand
[08:45.17]And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right
[08:47.94]Some of your sisters, aunties, mums or wives
[08:50.83]Are ****s aside and they will never touch on why
[08:53.29]I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like-
[08:56.07]Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye
[08:58.84]This shit's awful, no matter what culture it ain't normal
[09:01.83]Men try and twist it, make it seem like it's your fault
[09:04.51]In that train full of people that you're taking
[09:07.51]How many Lesleys are running from their Jasons?
[09:18.53]Angel without wings
[09:22.87]Like the day without the night to bring her peace
[09:28.75]A song without a voice
[09:31.67]A spark without a flame
[09:34.40]A child without a name
[09:38.10]Oh, it's just wrong
[09:41.39]Like an ocean without a shore
[09:44.38]A soldier without a war
[09:47.43]How can we do this anymore?
[09:51.58]A song without a voice
[09:54.40]A spark without a flame
[09:57.30]A child without a name
[10:01.09]Oh, it's just wrong
[10:22.44]Well, we've made a massive amount of progress
[10:26.14]In this last year, haven't we?
[10:27.73]Feels like a long journey
[10:31.88]And I must say it's been a pleasure,
[10:34.59]To watch you mature and grow in thought
[10:37.72]And in your career and life
[10:39.95]You've opened up immensely
[10:42.95]I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions
[10:46.95]But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself
[10:54.11]So you're always welcome
[10:56.86]I'm just happy you're at a place now
[10:59.87]Where you feel you understand your emotions
[11:04.57]And are in control