Mansion - NF/Fleurie.mp3

[00:00.38]Insidious is blind inception
[00:03.80]What's reality with all these questions?
[00:06.69]Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
[00:13.30]Broken legs but I chase perfection
[00:16.37]These walls are my blank expression
[00:19.66]My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[00:22.85]And it's lonely inside this mansion
[00:31.77]Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
[00:34.96]They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
[00:38.37]Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
[00:41.43]And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
[00:44.72]That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
[00:47.81]And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
[00:50.95]I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
[00:54.19]You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
[00:57.47]Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
[01:00.45]That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
[01:03.68]And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
[01:06.66]But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
[01:10.38]I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
[01:13.22]Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
[01:16.33]Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now
[01:19.56]Somehow this memory for some reason just won't come down
[01:22.95]You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
[01:26.09]Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
[01:29.21]Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
[01:32.36]But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[01:36.85]Insidious is blind inception
[01:39.85]What's reality with all these questions?
[01:43.01]Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
[01:49.26]Broken legs but I chase perfection
[01:52.54]These walls are my blank expression
[01:55.81]My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[01:59.22]And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[02:05.02]Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
[02:07.78]See my problem is I don't fix things
[02:09.92]I just try to repaint, cover 'em up, like it never happen
[02:12.85]Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
[02:15.10]Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
[02:17.44]This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
[02:20.32]The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
[02:23.73]I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
[02:26.84]But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
[02:30.16]I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
[02:33.30]Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
[02:36.50]And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called
[02:39.71]But I should just stop now, we ain′t got enough room in this song
[02:43.07]And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
[02:46.06]And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
[02:49.22]Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it’s out of my hands
[02:52.42]Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
[02:56.37]And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
[02:59.28]And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
[03:02.22]Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
[03:05.30]The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[03:09.58]Insidious is blind inception
[03:12.77]What's reality with all these questions?
[03:15.81]Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
[03:21.70]Broken legs but I chase perfection
[03:25.54]These walls are my blank expression
[03:28.63]My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[03:32.09]And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[03:37.49]So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
[03:40.52]I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
[03:43.76]Cause if I do, there's a chance
[03:45.46]That they might disappear and not come back
[03:48.06]And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
[03:51.54]So I just leave my doors locked
[03:53.26]You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
[03:56.24]Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
[03:59.33]And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
[04:02.51]I'm barricaded inside
[04:04.06]So stop watching
[04:05.58]I'm not coming to the door
[04:07.17]So stop knocking, stop knocking
[04:09.62]I'm trapped here
[04:11.10]God keep saying I'm not locked in
[04:12.89]I chose this
[04:13.92]I am lost in my own conscience
[04:16.29]I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
[04:18.92]But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve ′em
[04:22.17]I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
[04:25.20]But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
[04:28.55]Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
[04:31.70]Maybe that's the problem
[04:32.82]Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
[04:35.01]I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
[04:37.94]He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
[04:41.38]Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
[04:44.48]Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
[04:47.33]Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
[04:50.97]Is that me or the fear talking?
[04:53.10]I don't know anymore