[00:04.89]This was the year I would finish a book[00:07.55]I was going to live a Bohemian life in Berlin[00:18.63]And this was the year I was redecorating my kitchen, my bedroom, my bathroom[00:24.73]and everything in... side.[00:32.84]This was the year my life would change[00:39.95]and all of the chaos would fall in two days[00:53.85]This was the year I would start on a diet and be very healthy[00:58.89]while reading the magazines thorough.[01:07.84]And this was the year I would write a whole book about life,[01:11.67]how I see it and they would all think I was smart.[01:21.76]And this was the year I would play on tv[01:24.81]I would talk to the host about life and the hard times last year.[01:35.92]And this was the year I would tour in the states[01:38.84]I would live in New York buy new clothes and drink wine every day.[01:50.02]This was the year I would make it.[01:57.09]But this became the year... I was faking it[02:02.43]Everything stays the same.[02:25.12]The life that they're living.[02:28.25]I want to move to Paris and I want to be[02:31.56]with my lover my lover my beloved one[02:35.49]beloved beloved beloved one[02:38.88]I want to tell him I love him[02:42.13]I want to ride on a horse in the sunset[02:45.12]with my beloved beloved beloved one[02:49.58]beloved beloved beloved one.[03:04.14]This was the year I would marry, have kids, buy a house with a garden[03:10.71]and this was the year I would cook everyday[03:13.64]I would travel the world talk to strangers and friends.[03:17.22]be a lover, a wife, a mother, a friend.[03:21.27]And everything would turn out perfect in the end[03:26.25]in the end[03:28.16]in the end.[03:30.62]Oh I thought I had changed,[03:34.68]but nothing has changed[03:37.43]eveything stays the same.